Clarity of Mind

That title is a prayer that flowed from me one afternoon as I sat in the family room of our home angrier and more hurt than I can ever recall. I was crushed by the rejection of our third daughter who was fifteen, or so, at the time and I had no idea how to make it right. I was devastated. Angry thoughts were spinning over and over in my head, “Doesn’t she know what I went through to get here?!” “Doesn’t she know how good she has it?” “How can she reject me when I’ve worked so hard at loving them?” “She has no idea what I went through to get here!”

I sat there wanting to cry…rage…run.

I don’t remember what it was written on, some book or box I’m not sure exactly, but a word grabbed me as I sat filled with pure hatred for the situation I was in, but there it was…a word…clarity. It seems funny that I can’t remember what that word was written on, nonetheless “clarity” moved right through my eyes and down deep into the anger that was consuming all my sensibilities…I said it out loud, then I said it again…telling God I needed it….then I begged Him…

“Clarity of mind, Lord, I need clarity of mind…”

Since then He has made that small haphazard, angry prayer a common thread in my life…and I don’t forget how much I still need it.

This was the beginning of a journey that I know will never end…until I know…just as I am completely known…when I’m home with Jesus.

Clarity of Mind = Life in the Clear

My name is Vicki Esche, I’m a wife, a homeschooler, and a friend, sharing some things that I’ve learned along the way on this road of life. My hope is that my words convey a strong hope in Christ and that we may know that He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life.

“…the path of the righteous is like the light of dawn, that shines brighter and brighter until the full day.” – Proverbs 4:18

To God be the glory.

Published by vlesche

I'm just a girl talking about Jesus.

7 thoughts on “Clarity of Mind

  1. I LOVE THIS! I’m proud of you for writing and putting it out here. You have a wonderful way with words. Keep it coming and I’ll follow you on your journey.

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  2. Vic, I love this and you ! What a perfect reminder that I need to keep my focus on Jesus, clarity only comes through Him ! My life verse is Phil. 4:13, I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me ! Not some things, ALL things ! I am praying you keep writing & sharing, God has blessed you a gift ! 💖🙏

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  3. This is so awesome Vic!!🤗❤️🎉
    This is the beginning of a wonderful journey for you, and so many others who will be blessed by your wisdom, grace and Clarity of mind! You have so much to offer! God has blessed you with the ability to take people where they are, and to show them God’s grace and love, in so many ways!! Love you my beautiful sister!! 🤗❤️👏👏💕🥰❤️

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  4. This is beautiful, Vicki. . . it helped me so much. Thank you for being willing to be so transparent. Those things that we would love to pretend never happen, feelings we’d like to act like we never have. . . the ugly parts of life. . .are exactly what Jesus wants to use to help someone else right as they’re sitting in the same mess. Satan tries to tell us no one else ever goes through what we do, never feels what we feel. . .and he loves it when we keep those things to ourselves so no one else can ever get help. Thank you so much for letting us know you’ve been there. . .and made it out!

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