That title is a prayer that flowed from me one afternoon as I sat in the family room of our home angrier and more hurt than I can ever recall. I was crushed by the rejection of our third daughter who was fifteen, or so, at the time and I had no idea how to make it right. I was devastated. Angry thoughts were spinning over and over in my head, “Doesn’t she know what I went through to get here?!” “Doesn’t she know how good she has it?” “How can she reject me when I’ve worked so hard at loving them?” “She has no idea what I went through to get here!”
I sat there wanting to cry…rage…run.
I don’t remember what it was written on, some book or box I’m not sure exactly, but a word grabbed me as I sat filled with pure hatred for the situation I was in, but there it was…a word…clarity. It seems funny that I can’t remember what that word was written on, nonetheless “clarity” moved right through my eyes and down deep into the anger that was consuming all my sensibilities…I said it out loud, then I said it again…telling God I needed it….then I begged Him…
“Clarity of mind, Lord, I need clarity of mind…”
Since then He has made that small haphazard, angry prayer a common thread in my life…and I don’t forget how much I still need it.
This was the beginning of a journey that I know will never end…until I know…just as I am completely known…when I’m home with Jesus.
Clarity of Mind = Life in the Clear
My name is Vicki Esche, I’m a wife, a homeschooler, and a friend, sharing some things that I’ve learned along the way on this road of life. My hope is that my words convey a strong hope in Christ and that we may know that He is the Way, the Truth, and the Life.
“…the path of the righteous is like the light of dawn, that shines brighter and brighter until the full day.” – Proverbs 4:18
To God be the glory.